This DID NOT just happen....

I could just say....

"Jaiya's two."

And leave it at that, and most of you would know exactly how this little one is acting, but I can't do that. She needs to read this one day. I have been at my wits end at times, ready to pull out my hair, but I just know that this all has to be documented so we will laugh hysterically together at what her poor Mom and Dad went through.

The purpose of this post is to tell you about Sunday. A Sunday that was more eventful than I'd hoped.

To set all of this up, you must know that I woke up in a terrific mood. I was so happy finals were over, and we had a great night watching a movie with friends the night before. Dustin was still in bed, cause he works his last night shift that night, and I was surprisingly on good track to get us to church in time. Our church doesn't start until 12:30 and even with a later church, I miraculously find myself running late...imagine that. So. Here I am, running on time, I've already showered, made breakfast, a chocolate sippy, started laundry, ran Jaiya's bath water, and was ready to put her in the tub.

I go get her, put her in her nice warm bath water full of toys, and start on my make-up. She yells that she has to go potty, so I of course tell her to get out of the tub and go quickly....she does.

I run in to the kitchen super fast to get our lunch cooking...then I'm back to doing my make-up.

I heard her get back in the tub. And that's that.

Little did I know, that in about 30 seconds, my adrenaline was gonna kick in way above your average adrenaline rush, and I was going to be in sheer panic.

Next thing I hear, "Look Mama, the iPad'th bathin'!"

It's completely submerged.

"WHAT!!#$%#%#"

After that...I don't remember much but I grabbed the iPad, ran in to the bedroom with a towel in hand, yelling for Dustin to wake up...cause let's be honest, I can't go through an event like this alone if I don't have to. All the while, I'm shaking it like crazy to let the water drain out of the plug-in area. I'm literally shaking.

Now, it's important for you to know this as well. This iPad was not the cheapest of iPads. I've told Dustin a few times, along with many others, that we were stupid for buying the most expensive darned iPad out there. We didn't need the package deal thingy that allows you to hook up through your phone provider, cause we are switching companies now anyway. We also didn't need the gazillion more GB or whatever that we chose to stupidly get. This is mainly my fault. I get sold REALLY easy by those salesman in Best Buy. Well, any salesman really...

Dustin goes in to tell Jaiya that the iPad is ruined and that it was a gigantic NO NO for putting it in there, then....

The contraption that we have to hold our shampoos, conditioners, soap, razors, wash cloths (it stands in the corner and is anchored at the ceiling and the edge of the tub) comes crashing down on our poor daughter....

I get her out and love on her while Dustin fixes that mess...

Then I smell burning noodles.

Great. Dead iPad, big mess in the bathroom, and I burned lunch.

So, here we are, the iPad has been in rice since Sunday...Still works, but has water throughout the right side of the screen, and we are out nearly a grand for nothin'....

Sigh.

Let's hope that next Sunday is much more pleasant to us.

It's time...

For a change.

A BIG one.

One that will better me, and make me healthier and stronger than ever before.

Here's a low-down on why I'm so desperate for some kind of change. (Bare with me on this exhausting journey down memory lane....)
I've mentioned to you all that this past year I ended up in therapy due to panic attacks (happening nightly at its worst). It was horrible. The radiologist I work with just so happened to be in the room when I had a meltdown at work...He told me that I should just talk to someone for some relief. It worked. For about 5 months. Then, once MRI school started, (this all happens when my cup overflows apparently) I end up with an ulcer in my stomach, which leads to me losing 8 lbs in a month, and I lose my appetite. I later start getting wavy vision, and feel like my insides are shaking, with numb hands and feet. WHAT? I thought I fixed all of this...CRAP! So, I go to the doctor and to be safe we do an EKG, MRI of my brain, check my heart, blood pressure, labs...the works. Nothing. It was getting so frustrating. He then diagnosed it as anxiety attacks. So, he says..."You know, since you don't really want to be on any meds, you should try therapy again."
Well, guess what...I don't have time for therapy dude! Golly. It's like one thing after another. It's not like I even think there is any specific reason for all of this...it's just that I don't usually talk about things that stress me out, so he thinks it all builds up...true. But, while I do think I need to get back in therapy, I am also changing my lifestyle. Dustin swears it's all related to my diet. And...He's probably right!

It's my NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION that I'm starting asap. Because I have the rest of December off from school, which means, I can get in to a routine without all the hustle and bustle of mommy, wifey, school, work duties happening all at once. Which has seemed to drain me physically. So, after December, I should have it down pretty good, and not have one more added thing weighing me down and compromising my end goal.

What is this goal you ask?

I'm changing all negative things in my life...

Food. I eat in such a way, that it's amazing I'm alive to tell about it. Fondant for breakfast and doritos for dinner is just not gonna cut it. It's no wonder why I am constantly battling for energy.

The next is more water. Or I guess I should say, start drinking water. I don't. I just don't. 1 gallon a day. No matter what.

The BIGGEST change of all...(this will shock the nation and possible cause a disaster or something huge like that) NO MORE POP. I mean it. I drink diet, which means no calories so therefore shouldn't be bad for you right? Wrong. I couldn't be more wrong. It's pathetic how horrible it is for you. Yes, I don't get sugar with diet soda, but what about the aspartame that is used in substances for embalming dead people. Sick. Sick sick sick. I'm disgusted. 52 oz of that shiz a day, and sometimes more. Gag me now! Blah!

I am also starting to take some vitamins: Vitamin C- Dandelion Root- Fish Oil- and Biotin. These I discovered at different times and for various reasons. But all are so good for you.

Excersise...say what?! Yes, excersise. It's important, even if I make every excuse known to man NOT to do it. It's important and I am starting now. I got some great advice from a friend to read the Bikini Body Mommy Challenge blog, and I got inspired.

Also, my hubby has been taking supplements and excersising like a freaking maniac, and I decided if we are both on board, it will be easier on both of us. I won't choose not to cook just cause I know it doesn't meet his "healthy" standards, and he doesn't have to eat healthy alone and be sabatoged by his rediculously unhealthy spouse. Win, win...

Next.

A healthy mind.

It sounds so weird but I truly think that a healthy mind leads to a healthy body, attitude, ....life. It's the best thing you can do. This I am not sure yet on what exactly I plan to do. But what I do know is that I can be my biggest obstacle. I say things to myself that set me up for failure without even doing it on purpose. Things like: "I am so fat."  "I am just not smart enough for this." "I can't juggle all of this." "I am so tired, weak and lazy all of the time."   It's so destructive and I've been working on it for years. The power of "The Secret" right? What you think you are, you will be...It's as simple as that. But, like I said, I have been working on this for a while now, but I hope 2013 will bring me some good changes and a healthier life...

I plan on updating on all of this too. Like the changes that are being made by doing all of this... Hopefully it will inspire someone else out there to make positive changes...

Ready. Setty (as Jaiya says). GO!

Jaiya's 2

Jaiya turned two yesterday, December 1st.

Time does not slow down for anything. Unfortunately. Sometimes I just want to pause, and enjoy all that is around me without all of the To Do's weighing on my mind.

Jaiya is the reason for this.

Everything she does & says is enough to make me want to take it all in and never let her out of my site, and sometimes I wonder why I even work so hard to get an education, when all that really matters is her.

Then reality sets in, and I realize, that's exactly why I do it. I do it for her and for her sweet daddy. All the weight shouldn't be on his shoulders alone.

These past 2 years have been nothing outside of pure joy. I still sometimes have to pinch myself at the thought that Dustin and I have created this little being. She is smart, funny, & wise beyond her years already.

Jaiya loves her Mom and Dad. Thank goodness, cause we all know that doesn't last forever. She loves singing: ABC's, Sunshine, Twinkle Twinkle, Popcorn Song, We Wish You a Merry Christmas, etc. She finds a way to get her toothbrush and toothpaste, because this is her favorite thing. She loves books, and babies, coloring, Dora, & princesses. She has a way of making mom feel better whenever tears are present...Jaiya becomes little mom and takes care of me. She adores her Papa's and Grandma's. She talks on the phone daily. She loves ONLY chocolate milk in her sippy. She loves to go to bed, or maybe loves isn't the right term, willingly goes to bed. She let's me know when she is tired and needs a nap. She loves Jesus, church, and she says the most precious little prayers I've ever heard. She likes her hair done. She loves rides in the car, at all hours of the day. She HAS to have a sucker every time I go to Holly's for my daily drink. She still knows way more Spanish than I have the ability to share with you all, cause I do NOT know what all of it means. She counts to 20. Her choice of room to destroy is the bathroom. She is friendly and will talk to anyone. She loves my iPad, and has pretty much taken it over. She is much better at using it than I am.

(Stat's will come after her 2 year doctor's appt.)

And to Jaiya....

Jaiya,
       I hope you always remember that there is opposition in all things. You will have some trials in life that seem to heavy to bear, but at the end of it all, the blessings are beyond what you could ever imagine. You should always remember that education is important, work hard in school, do the best you can, and the opportunities are endless. Boys will break your heart, but the hurt won't last for long. Friends can be mean, and make life seem really hard, but true friendships will always come through in the end. Be nice. It will make you even more beautiful than you already are. Beauty is only skin deep, but what matters is your true intent, your thoughts, feelings and compassion. Never give up. It's the easy way out on things, and your true potential for life will come with following through til the end, and giving it your all. Be real. Don't try to be like anyone else, cause there is only one, YOU. God made you, YOU, for a reason. Stay strong in the church. It is the only solid foundation  we have to get through this crazy life. Remember that family is everything. It comes first. All the worldly things in life will never measure up to the happiness family will bring you.

I am so so grateful beyond any expression for having you in my life. Thank you for showing me a new kind of love, and for being the best lil daughter ever. You have already taught me so much in life.

I love you princess. Happy Birthday.

Love,
Mom

I can't wait to share pics from Jaiya's princess party. She had such a good Birthday...

Boy oh boy...

How did I forget to blog the most anticipated time of the year....

GIRLS WEEKEND!

 

And since I am in the middle of homework, and have the attention span of a 3 year old, I need a break already. So, what better time to blog than right this very second?! Except, the hubs tries to keep me on track so I have to nonchalantly switch screens when he comes around;) Just a heads up.

 

 

Ok...

So, if you started reading my blog after October of last year, you probably don't know how much I love.adore.worship.look forward to...Girls Weekend. (Yes I capitalize it. It's a new Holiday. Get used to it.)

 

If you don't do Girls Weekend. You should.

 

Every year, in October, Mama Urs, Bush, and Myself take a few days and go to St. George. Here is what we do. Eat, Shop, Orange Peel, Shop, Tuacahn, movie, Sleep, Next day: Eat, Shop, Orange Peel, Shop, Tuacahn, Sleep, Day 3: Orange Peel, Shop, Eat, Movie, Head home. Got it?

 

We 3 amigos, find ourselves to be hilarious, and we laugh the entire time. Like, pee your pants laughing. I enjoy saying inappropriate things that makes Ma go in to severe shock, and sis just listens and laughs while watching all of this go on. It's great.

 

Here's our trip through pictures:

 

 Exchanging our "favorite things."

 

 Mom and her amazing talents!

 

 Bubble Smoothies...To die for!

Holy crap. We thought this was fake.

 

 We hate that we are all grown up now...we want mamma to push us still...!:(

 

 Models in the making for Claires.

 

" Hey, I mustache you a question?!"

 

Hi, I'm a sloth. Not sure why, just go with it!

 

 2 words. Pitch Perfect. Best movie, and hilarious. This is my sis doing her version of the sideways run...priceless sis, priceless.

 

 

 

Only 330-ish days til next time....

 



Thankful.

It is so easy to get caught up in the busyness of life and lose sight of all things that make life so enjoyable.

That's why I adore the Holiday's.

This time of year is all about gratitude, giving, and love. It's what makes the holiday season what it is.

I like to think that I am a grateful person, and that I don't take too much for granted. But, truth is, we all do. It's part of life. We get caught up in our own little world, and do what we need to do to survive the craziness of life, and then things that we normally would take the time to notice are put on the back burner. It's a battle that is meant to help us learn and grow.

Since I started my Radiology education, I have felt like it has taken so much time and caused so much stress, but the rewards are tenfold. I can't tell you how much better I feel knowing that I am working towards my full potential in a field I am passionate about. It would have been much easier not to go outside of my little box of comfort, but I am glad I took that leap of faith in myself. Although, mainly, for the tiny little person that I am so proud to call my daughter.

Throughout the past few years, I have had major ups and downs, and I know I have driven everyone to drink with my madness. Especially my hubs. I have meltdowns and times of pure joy. But he is always there to keep me going. I have days where I am struggling and with one conversation with Dustin, I feel energized, confident and good to go. How a person can do this for you is unreal. Why can't I do that for myself? Sheesh. Guess that's what makes marriage so great. Keeping each other solid and confident for the world.

I had a few "moments" while I was preparing for Thanksgiving to think about how far Dust and I have come. We were kids when we met. Literally. I was 16, he was 17. We have grown with one another in to everything that we are today. All we have, our decisions, it's all been together. How lucky are we?

And, although it's obvious, I am so proud and happy of the best thing we have ever done....Bringing little Jaiya Ivie in to the world.

It's a scary thing to become parents. This world has gone mad, and the thought of a child growing up in all of this mess is frightening to say the least. But, the Lord saved the strongest...So, we have faith that she will be strong, grow to be wise and set out for her dreams. That's all we could ever want. Pure happiness.

Raising kids with solid values and confidence can't be easy. But we are going to give it our all and hope for the best. She'll need it. Just like we do. I strive for balance, confidence, and bettering myself daily. It never ends. But, it's important to be what you want your kids to be.

That is my gratitude this Thanksgiving. I hope you all enjoy your holiday's, take time to reflect, and remember what makes you, YOU!





I have more pics of Thanksgiving day...once I figure out how to get them on my laptop.

Happy Thanksgiving All!

Halloween

Dustin and I, BOTH, had to work on Halloween this year. Bummer!  I wasn't going to be home until 9-ish and Dustin works through the night so, I was SO happy that Jaiya was invited to her FIRST birthday party (besides family;) a few days before actual Halloween.

Tacyn is her cute little friend that lives here in town. His birthday is around Halloween, so it was a "COSTUME PARTY".... Thank goodness. This felt enough like Halloween for Mom not to feel too guilty. (Thanks Whit!)








She had so much fun! Every kid her age was at this party, i swear! They made pizza (hers was of course loaded with olives), played, and opened presents. I'm so mad I didn't get a pic of the grand entrance into the party... It was like a haunted house with fog, music and decor!!!

Halloween night, dad got Jaiya got all dressed up In her owl costume. She loves her costume and walks around saying,"whoooo. Whoooo." All while flapping her wings.

Halloween would not have happened, had it not been for our mom's!

Thank the heaven's above for Grandma's! Grandma Candi did her make-up, and mom made sure Jaiya got to trick-or-treat a few houses.

She looked SO cute!

And her I am. All dressed up at the hospital. Halloween is a BIG deal at SVMC.

Pumpkin Patch

This year Dustin and I were adiment on making sure that we took Jaiya to the pumpkin patch & carve the pumpkins BEFORE Halloween. We usually say we are going to do all of these fun things before a holiday, and never do them. But this time, we actually did...minus the carving...Well at least we improved. Rome wasn't built in a day people!

We took Jaiya over to the Beck Family Farms pumpkin patch. They do a great job setting up the pumpkins with the most creative/fun little names,  making the BEST maze for the little ones, and it's so country. I can't help but remember why Dustin and I never wanted to leave Small Town, USA. This is exactly how we want to raise Jaiya.

She was so excited. I even woke her up after napping for only twenty minutes, and she was as happy as ever! Success.

 1,2,3.....jump!

The finish line!!!

4 generations. xo

Pointless.

My posts that are completely and utterly pointless, those are some of the funnest one's to write. I guess I really like coming to terms with how weird I am. It's great.

I decided today, that after years of hate and cruel jokes, I like cats. Ellen, (my blessing in disguise for daily laughter, )  showed the silliest cat video. After that, I decided I wanted one. Not an idea I would even want to entertain at the moment considering I have a dog I can barely raise, and a child who is busier than ever! It just baffles me, (baffles? not sure that's a real word, but it's perfect) that my strict way of thinking can be turned upside down with one talk show episode. I not only want a cat, but I want it to be fat. Yet another reason I shouldn't have one.

On to other things.

I also, still, love short hair. And since my husband would probably never be able to look at me twice if I cut mine, I'm gonna share a pic or two that I look at just for pure pleasure and wishful thinking.

So, there is even a story behind this picture.
Two years ago, I came across a pic of this hairstyle. I loved it. I took a picture of the picture, and kept it on my phone just so I could lust over what will never be on my head. Then, miraculously, I was graced with it's presence on google again today. And, I had to share.

It's not my #1 anymore, but I still love it. And we have a history;)

 

Another beauty.

sleek perfection.

 

I can see long, flowy, beautiful hair, and think it's gorgeous. I'm human. But, if I see a cute short hairstyle. I become envious. It's the best. Short over long. That's all I gotta say. This gene was inherited by my dad, who is goo goo ga ga over short hair. Thanks dad.

 

And that folks, is what I do to brighten a dull day. Look at fat cats and short hair.

 

 



Oh how I love...

VEGAS!

 

Yes it can be trashy and full of sin, but whenever we vacay to Vegas, it's a darn good time! This trip  we went with Dustin's parents, Mike and Candi. They had not been to Vegas in years, just to play, and we were more than ready for a good time, so we packed up and left for the weekend. Leaving poor lil' Jijjy behind to be pampered and spoiled like a princess with Grandma and Papa! Poor thing.

 

We went to two shows while we were down there, played blackjack, ate yummy food, toured a little, and saw some HUMUNGOUS dump trucks. Now, if that isn't pure joy, I don't know what is!

 

Mike and Shanell were down there for their Anniversary, and stayed at our hotel, so we hung out with them all but the last night. Talk about lots of laughs...we love those two to pieces!

 

 

 

 Mike ran to fill up the car...so we decided we'd just pretend he was there.

 

This is our upgraded room. Dustin told the front desk there was "poo" on our floor in our first room. I can assure you that there WAS something on the floor, but poo, I don't know about that.

 

 After the "O" Cirque show we wanted to go watch the Bellagio fountains, but...of course, they weren't working!

Helllllooooo gorgeous....

 

 Wishing that 15 mill was ours...

Yes I paid $18 for 4 scoops. Duh.

 My dear sweet mother in law saving my life. Good thing she got to me in time!

 

I am so glad we got to go down before the hectic school year started. We always have so much fun with Dustin's parents. They seriously are the best. I lucked out big time. I cannot wait for round 2 of Vegas with them.